To be, or not to be… SAD


To be, or not be… SAD! That has been on my mind for most of today! There has been a lot of the number seven floating around in my head today; on the seventh day, of the seventh month, seven months ago our daughter was born sleeping.

SEVEN months has passed since the worst day of our lives. On the one hand it feels so far gone and I am so thankful for the small joys I can find in everyday. At the same time, on the other hand that pain and hurt and longing is never a heartbeat or a teardrop away.

I read a blog post about ‘The Grieving Optimist’. The polarities of grieving that an optimistic persons experience is somewhat strange. You want to crawl into a corner and decay, but you also want to believe the sun will shine on you again.

Today was one of those days. I was so sad and I wanted to be, but at the same time I AM so hopeful for what tomorrow can bring. So basically I was walking around with smile (the best one my heart could mutter up) with eyes full of tears.

So to be, or not to be sad was me today and you know what that is just fine!

I’ve realised that no matter what every day brings, I do the best that I can and that is what matters. I am searching for my colour!

It’s okay to be sad, don’t choose to stay just sad…

It’s okay to be angry, don’t stay angry…

It’s okay to give up, try again…


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